watermelon lemonade

sooooooooo i failed at not smoking this weekend. i am pretty disappointed in myself. i am definitely trying very hard to quit. gin and cigarettes just go perfect together. i had a lovely memorial day. i spent some with my family but most of it with my friends. today i went to a cookout and made watermelon lemonade. it is my new favorite thing!!!!!!!!! i have a bunch of lemonade recipes and i am going to try each and every one out this summer!

sad times

So this week i received some very tragic news. One of my good friends for over a decade found out he has cancer in multiple places in his body. We kind of were expecting he had cancer but no idea it would be this bad. The news took my breath away. I was at work and instantly started sobbing. Later that night I hung out with this friend. I was amazed at his good attitude. He told me that death isn't an option and i believe him. He has always been a very determined person and i know that he can make it thru this. He is someone who's ability to make things happen has always impressed me. He has booked so many awesome shows in my area, put together fests, travelled, managed to not have a job for almost the entire time I have known him, and started a record label. He can make it thru this too! The doctors say that the type of cancer he has responds well to treatment so that is awesome! I also want to say that I have been truly touched by the response of the community here and all the people out of town too. It is such a scary time and it is beautiful to see that so many people are willing to put forth effort, kind words, money, time, and whatever is needed. <3

I have made it a personal goal to quick smoking because of this. I myself had heart surgery as a child and feel like i take my health for granted. My friend had been straight edge for many years and he still is burdened with lung cancer. Another reminder that life isn't fair. I really do want to stand is solidarity and not take my health for granted any more!

I am also making it a goal to actually start blogging. I am not good with layouts and computer stuff but i will figure it out!